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Schizophrenia - YIKES ?

Yes i am slightly schizophrenic..

Yes i talk to myself awfully lot ...

and then hours pass till i realise ...

My brain enjoys these conversations a lot

My voice becomes a separate entity
my voice gets a face , 2 hands and the rest of the paraphernalia

and my heart and the brain ( i was always and i still am confused about whether the heart does the talking or the brain when we hear no sound ? )

So anyway and then my brain with its speech of thought starts talking to my voice with legs !

we run pretty fast !

Yes i am slightly Schizophrenic ...
and yes i am also somebody who might not know what it means !

Need for balance ? - Word Vomit !

what if we are never able to define Good or Bad ?

Where does one start ?


But then again ! what about all that was taught to us about good and bad when we were young ?

the be mannered
be good to others stuff ???
Those are definitons !



ROADBLOCK ! - need to jump !




err... Balance ?



Yes i am slightly Schizophrenic !

Obsession with Word Vomit !

Brutal Honesty is also an act of brutal selfishness..
And i enjoy every moment of feeling and being light headed!






Though i wonder if i ' ll be able enough , ever , to be as light headed when people are brutally honest about me !
Yes , for all that i flaunt , i aint Prefect !!
OOPS !





Baby step no . 4 !

WOrd VOmit !

Brutal honesty has the peculiar thing of scaring people -
Everybody thinks it is so Damn tough to be brutally honest
but the thing is - whats tougher than being brutally honest is to
have the courage to listen to the other one who is Brutally Honest too !
Being truthful about other people is just one stage of saint hood

Just think about it - only if all of us could digest each others brutal honesty
it wont be a big deal anymore
and well stripped down of your protective armours when there is no sign
of war isn't a bad thing at all !

And why have a WAR in the first place ?

I am good and bad at places -
you re good and bad at places too
my good is better than yours ??? or yours better than mine ?
my bad worse than yours ?? or yours worse than mine ?

When we could not define a universal good and a universal bad !
Who are we to comment on whats better or worse ?

Yes have an opinion ! you have a right too... i do to !
But think - before being judgemental !


i think we can eradicate fake ness
the only problem is -
Somebody has got to take the first step ....
and even me with my fancy talk just wish i could walk back -
like you re thinking , yeah right ROADBLOCK !

I am scared you will laugh
I am scared you ll judge
I am scared i will fail
I m scared i will hurt
But for all the bravado surrounding me
at least lets be satisfied with the fact
that ALL of us are thinking the same thing !

Baby steps - baby steps 1 - 2 - 3 ---------
wait till all of us get to 100 !
wait till all of us get to 100 !
wait till all of us get to 100 !
wait till all of us get to 100 !