The Blade Runner

I run the blade on me
it feels so good
No i am not a Psycho
Pain is a very intelligent teacher
What you might learn in years - it is capable of teaching you in days
every cut/bruise on me has made me jump 2 instead of 1
i crave for that pain now
No i am not a Psycho
i crave to shorten the period of learning
i crave for the depth
i crave for the maturity
i crave for the teachings
i crave for the intellect
Running the blade on me is a small price to pay !

The CTRL - Z Syndrome

it's easier to erase
the actions define a lot of our thoughts
Rituals exist BECAUSE they emphasise and inculcate that emotion/feeling in us
Sadly i commit and strike CTRL-Z now
in my head i do it everyday
i commit a mistake - i do a ctrl z
i say something wrong - i do a ctrl z
i fool around i do a ctrl z
and if somebody objects - i do a ctrl z
for guilty pleasures - ctrl z
for rollercoaster rides - ctrl z
for devilish indulgences - ctrl z
for evil thoughts - ctrl z
for manipulative techniques - ctrl z
for me to be clean - ctrl z
for me to be seen - ctrl z
for me to be mean ! - ctrl z
I do a ctrl z - till i am born again !
Life is a ctrl z
I am stuck in the ctrl z syndrome ...
and my zee is stuck !
Somebody / Anybody help !